for those of you who read yesterdays post on me getting food poisoning you may have already predicted this would happen to me.
Because of that episode the emetophobia has got worse by the second. i've just eaten a sandwich and am petrified of it coming back up again -- i think im gnna have to go out and buy some liquid meal things becaause i am not feeling OK with solids at the moment.
i have lost about 6 pounds. i am back at my lowest weight now. ironically, i got a letter this morning from the local eatin disorder unit saying that they want me to let the CPN weigh me because i am at a critical weight and need to be checked on to keep an eye on any physical complications that WILL occur.
so now. not only have i got to fight emetophobia to let me eat.. i've got another battle on my hand.. the fight against anorexia too.
what makes it even worse.. when i thort it cudnt get worse.. my boyfriend just texted me saying he needs a break because he's too scared i'm about to die or something?! this guy has had anorexia and been in hospital 3 times himself.. doesnt he realise running away is going to make me about 15 times worse? He told me to forgive him and he will let me know when he feels up to talking again.
my life appears to be spent going around in circles... i'm like a flipping dog chasing atail...
sorry to rant again... i'm hoping you lot won't run away from me lke others..
Jen xxxx
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