So winter is approaching, and of course norovirus is too. I've been dreading winter during the whole of summer, because I knew that I'd have to deal with the constant fear of getting norovirus. Norovirus cases are also probably prevalent in summer too, but I don't hear as much about it so whenever I get a stomach ache or feel sick the only cause is probably food poison, and I always have a way to make myself feel at ease (I ate too long ago to have food poisoning etc) but now that the norovirus season is approaching, I'll constantly have that threat.
To make matters worse I just got told that norovirus has been spreading in my school, so now I feel even worse. Honestly, I'm just angry. I'm angry at this phobia, I'm angry that people still come into school when they're still contagious. I'm just angry, really. Maybe it's a way to mechanism to mask the fear, who knows. I now know that I'll probably be in for sleep less nights, and obsessive thinking, for the next few months. I don't think I can deal with that. The fear also has seemed to intensify this year, so dealing with winter will be harder.
I don't know what to do really. I'm starting to consider therapy, because I cannot deal with this. I feel like breaking down and crying, or angrily sticking my fingers down my throat, just to get this shit over with. I'm at breaking point with this shit.
What to do?