I honestly thought my phobia was getting better, silly me. I've not been on this site since Christmas time, I've been sleeping at night, I eat out, I eat all the time now, I'm always hungry! I've gained weight, I very rarely feel N*, I don't panic anymore and I applied for a job and to start college, which is something this phobia has held me back from. But today I'm feeling hopeless. It started yesterday, I woke up feeling full and didn't eat as much as I usually do. I was up till 5am this morning and then woke up after 8. I woke up feeling empty, but really N*. I shrugged it off and got ready but as the days going on I'm feeling worse. I'm not hungry at all really, the thought of food isn't appealing to me, I've only managed to eat not even half a cup of soup. I'm really pale looking, like almost green, I have a headache, I'm cold and the N* just keeps coming in waves, its at its worst when I stand up. However, I don't have a sore tummy, or body aches or anything, and I've had bm twice today (which is unusual for me to go twice a day) but those were both normal, no D*. So this could just be anxiety right? Or I'm maybe just shattered from sleeping bad last night? I've not really ate anything bad and I've not been around anyone with a virus, but cause I've been doing better I've been out a lot and not washing my hands as much. Argh, hopefully this will only last today, I really don't want this phobia to go back to how bad it used to be!