Well, evidently nobody has tried this system to let me know how it works, so I guess I'll be the guinea pig. I just ordered it, the print version, so I have to wait for it to ship in the mail. I don't really have the money for it but there is a money back guarantee and I figured it would be the best investment in myself, if it works or at least brings me some relief. I will post about it when I get it and start using it. I am nervous about it, about it causing anxiety or panic attacks.
But I'm so ready to be done with the phobia and anxiety. It's been ruining my life lately. I can't even go to the bank and make a deposit-and I kind of need some money in there!!! I put extra burden on my husband to do things I can't and I don't want to do that. I'm tortured by whether to take a break from my cleaning job right now, want to but need the money, just can't decide and I know that's causing anxiety. I can't visit my friends right now because I'm so agoraphobic I can't go farther than about a mile or 2 from my house. I can't go to therapy 'cause I don't want to feel trapped in the office-will panic.
But since I've had more time lately I've been thinking a lot about my phobia and panic and anxiety. I've been thinking about the timeline of when the emet. started, when my panic attacks started, when I had anxiety about certain things. What I have found is that I've had anxiety as early as I can remember. I know my anxiety is hereditary and will have to deal with that, but I have to get to the bottom of the messages I'm sending to my subconscious about being sick. So I might take a notebook and write down all of the instances I can remember of being sick or someone else and write what I was feeling emotionally-this will be really difficult I know but I think it might be important.
So that's what I'm going to do. I'm afraid I will get too panicky doing this and give up. I'm experiencing some anxiety and nausea just talking about it right now. So we'll see.