Re: Anyone else keeping their phobia a secret?
Welcome!
I am very private about having anxiety attacks in front of others, including my own parents and husband. I HAVE to be alone. I guess it freaks me out because I know that when I see others get sick, I think that it's disgusting. Even though I don't think the actual PERSON getting sick is gross, I think their vomit is. I am afraid that others will think that I am gross. Totally not what I want. I like to freak out by myself. I don't need other people seeing me lose control over my own mind and/or body...and seeing all of my little "kinks" and the weird things I do when I'm anxious. I think to throw up in front of anyone would be the MOST embarrassing thing that could ever happen to me. Even my parents (although they've cleaned up after me and held my hair back countless times when I was younger). Or my husband (my best friend in the entire world...can't see me at my weakest point).
I didn't discover that I was emet (b/c I simply didn't know there was a name for it or what it meant) until about 3 months ago. All I knew before that point was that I was abnormally afraid of throwing up in front of others, or period. And I get very weak-stomached if someone else around me gets sick. Now that I know there is a name for it and lots (and lots and lots!) of info on it, I educate those close to me. Basically, I've just talked to my husband, 3 best friends, and parents about it. Otherwise, I feel like no one else needs to know. Unless the subject comes up, I'm pretty sure I'd never tell anyone else. Maybe doctors if I ever get pregnant, but that would be it. You are SO not alone with this!
Jennifer
"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So, love the people who treat you right, forgive the ones who don't and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it! Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised IT WOULD BE WORTH IT!"
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