I've been seeing this psychologist for a few weeks now and everything has been going great.
So far it has really started to make me see just how much this phobia has as affected my life.
looking down at all the bits of paper we had drawn up with all these negative words i just snapped this was my life these stupid words were my life. I am determined to make all those bits of paper disappear but im scared. My therapist then told me we were going to do CBT so of course i totally freaked.
I have just started it today. The first half of the session was just looking at pictures and they were fine I didnt really feel any anxiety at all, pretty much laughed at them. But then we went on to youtube and typed in the word v* and i almost jumped out of my chair. I felt like such an idiot being scared of a stupid video. She clicked on one and i totally lost it, hands shaking fingers in my ears eyes tight shut. almost crying.
Now im worried that il never have the guts to do this and im going to be like this for the rest of my life.
Just now i typed the dreaded word in google and looked at some horrofying images, but i mangaged to stare at them for more then a few seconds, which im quite proud of. But im still terrified that in my next session im going to have to watch videos with my therapist and im going to cry and run away. like i always do.
Has any body else on here tried CBT? was it as scary for you guys as it was for me in just one session? and did it work for them?
Because im about ready to give up, i've tried everything hypnosis, therapies, counsiling. ugh the list goes on and im only 22