Hey
So i see my psychaitrist 2ce a week and we've been working together for a number of years on various things. ocd/emet/anxiety is what we've been working on lately. i HATE bringing up emet stuff with him (and this is a man who has seen me on the edge of death from a eating disorder on more than one occasion... so needless to say i trust him and he's an MD so medically i know he knows his stuff) because i KNOW it's so irrational and it just sound so silly to say the thoughts and behaviours outloud. it makes me very self conscious.
finally today i asked him - because a lot of the time i'm not sure i can really figure out what my body is telling me - if i'm gassy, hungry, full, or anything else stomach related, i'm SURE i've got an *sv and then start panicking and all of my avoidance behaviours and compulsions get so complicated that i retrace every single move i've made in an attempt to figure out if i'm really sick or just extremely anxious - so i asked him "will i know if i'm sick - will my body tell me?" and he said that i WOULD know if i was sick because i would *v - which nearly sent me into hysterics because i need to know BEFORE (as you may have guess i very rarely *v). Then he gave me time frames and told me that if i was *n and nothing happened and a 1/2 hour has passed then chances are it IS just anxiety.
so, now i have a time frame. which is really comforting because maybe i can just freak out for 1/2 hour and believe it's anxiety (tho that's going to be a hard one), and try to cope with the anxiety rather than the emet..
but now my head's thinking - but emets can feel *n for days (which i do, very very often) and not *v.
so, i'm confused.
insights?