How bad does it have to get...?

[sarahx]

Im so tired... fed up... depressed... lonely... scared..


I just want emet to go away. Things have been getting steadily worse these past few weeks. I cant see a therapist for a year unless i pay for it... i cant afford to pay!!! I slashed my wrists and nobody cares that its a cry for help... i need to feel better... I just dont want to feel like this. I would rather be dead. Im in hell and theres no way out. My boyfriend says if i dont snap out of it he will take my little girl away incase i hurt her? Why does he think im going to hurt my baby girl? Why doesnt anyone care that im hurting so bad...?


Sorry guys just ignore me...

[mbs730]

Sarah I have been feeling very down too. I feel like no
one cares about my emet and I keep on thinking how I cant cope in
dangerous situations. I am short on money right now too. I wish there
was something comforting I can say but I cant because I am getting
close to the point too. I'm sick of eveyone's ignorance regarding the
emet too.



Miriam

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[faith-marilyn]

Hey there sarah !
First of all, please don't think that nobody cares, there are thousands of people here who care and wish you and every single other person here well.
We know you're hurting, because we all are too. We are all in the same position, but knowing that one day we will all be better is what we are aiming for. Try to concentrate on the life u will have when all this is in the past instead of concentrating on the hurt you are feeling now. And yeah, there are times when things feel really bad, but all of us here know that there is always a better day, wether its today or next week, there is always a time when things wont seem so bad. If you feel like the people around you don't understand what you are going through, why not try looking for some general info on emet on the net and print it off, highlight the important things and the bits that apply to u and make them read until they understand! And the situation with your little girl, isnt that something to strive for? having a fantastic and fulfilling life with your daughter which IS possible and will happen one day, you just need to stick with it, like the rest of us! Look at sage, she is living proof that u can get thru this and have an amazing life, the life you deserve, and that will come to you soon if you let it and really try for it.
If you dont feel you can wait a year to see a therapist which i completely understand is a stupid time to wait, keep on going back to your doc and keep on pushing and dont stop until u have a therapist. If you keep on persisting i doubt you will have to wait a year.
I hope this helped you, just remember, dont give in, keep on pushing and stay strong and one day you will be there, u'll get there an life will be even more fantastic than you could have ever dreamed of )
much love,
faith-marilyn
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[Jenneh]

Sarah, iv been feeling the same as you do.


please dont hurt yourself tho for smthing thats not ur fault. u gotta be kind to urself because ur going thru a very hard thing.


i know it feels lke ur all alone and no one around u cares and everyone is just against you... bt tht doesnt have to be the case.


ur boyfriend doesnt sound lke my cup of tea if he ses things lke that! thers no way u'd hurt ur girl.. thats just ridiculoous.. mayb hes just tryin to FORCE u to get better ... but it aint gnna work lke that.


i dont kno whether u feel ok with tlking to him considering what hes just said... buit it might really help to get him to stop nagging at you and start supporting you instead.


the hell ur in, well, there is a way out. its just gnna take time. hell if there was a magic cure id have sent it to all of u by now. bt all i can do is try adn support. so please, dont give up on me.


Jen xxxxxxxx

[sarahx]

Ok well ive had chats with stephen today and i feel a lot better... hes really fab isnt he? Helping me out when hes been having a tough time too...


Well ive decided that from today i dont have emet anymore lol im jst gonna fight through it all.. otherwise im gonna go mad!!! Yeah i wonder how long til im back on here telling u ive had a panic attack or something lol!!! Wish me luck...


Sarah xxx

[wing]

Good Luck! Keep an optimistic attitude!

[Jenneh]

u cant run away from ur probs sarah. saying " i dont have emet nemore" wont help.. and u;ll come back here, probably depressed because emet has bitten u in the bum and come back.


its better to say smthing lke " iv decided to not let emet rule me nemore". " hey asshole, (AKA emet), todays the day i kill you inside" kinda thing.


idk. im ill lol so not thinking straight.


Jen xxxx

[mothtoaflame]

Hiya Sarah,


I understand exactly where you are coming from. Sometimes I wonder if you have to fully "break" before anyone will help to fix you - although I know this isn't true. I also know that trying to deny the problem wont help. I can't count the number of times I have tried to convince myself that I don't have OCD (actually in one of those phases at the moment) - but again, it never works. I am glad you are feeling better .........


Love,
Karen.