Bouncing back...sort of

[HDogg]

After having a total relapse, where I became nearly housebound for a couple of weeks, I'm starting to finally feel better. Thank God for Paxil CR. I am actually going out to a comedy club tonight at 10, and while I'm a little nervous, I'm not in a complete panic. I'll probably only be away from home for 3 hours or so and I'm actually looking forward to my first big outing away from home inalmost a month.


But, now that I'm feeling better, my husband says that I need to get a part-time job. He says that if Ican handle a few hours away from home, that I can handle a 20 hour a week job. That scares me quite a bit, because part of the reason I had a replapse in my anxiety was because I had a bad v* scare at work, where I was crouched over thetrashcan, positive that I was going to throw up. From there, it sent me into a downward spiral and Ibecame so afraid that Icouldn't do my job properly. This led to dissatisfaction from my boss, and we got into several fights about it, which led me to quittwo months later. I'm so scared that I will fail at this job too. I had such highhopes from my past job, and was enjoying myself for the mostpart, upuntil that v* scare in June. Now I'm not sure I can handle this part time job. Especially knowing that eventually I'll have to workfull time again, so we can afford tokeep our house andtrucks.


Plus, with my sister's wedding coming up next weekend, I'm stressed about that. She's my only sibling, and I'm in her wedding party, and have to help her a lot this coming week. There's so much stress. Even though I'm seeing a lot of improvement, I'm scared of another relapse. I guess I just need some reassurance that I will be able to handle all this. [img]smileys/smilies_09.gif[/img]

[Galadriel]

Hey Heather!


I know how you feel. The fear can get overwhelming. I too have had a rough week this week from college starting plus dad wants me to get a pt job on top of that. I understand how you feel!


It sounds like thatnew med is really helping you out tho, and that you're gonan be okay. Just think, its just this week, then you'll have gotten thro her wedding, and then you can think about a pt job. Maybe just try and get thro your sister's wedding, then shoot for the job. Best of luck Heather!!