im no use.

[Jenneh]

ok guys i think im gnna leave this place.


ppl i know on MSN, ill still tlk to you... but my lack of ability to speak english is really getting me into deep s***.


u no, i saw a man jump under a train today... do u no how tempting it is to foillow into his footsteps.

[2jo2]

Jen,


Please don't jump under a train. All this crap, although it sucks, really isn't worth getting the best of you. I read your post to another thread that I didn't find offensive, so don't take it personally. Sometimes when there's alot of us here that have bad days, we can manage to bring each other down. I really hope you're feeling ok. Let us know.

[mistydb27]

That is unacceptable. That will not come out of your keyboard again.


I asked you if i offended you.


Now. Delete that from your brain and my God. Somebody through themselves under a train?!


NONONONONO!


No matter what there are people who need and care about you and would be utterly and totally devastated if you did something stupid like that. I know the thought crosses our minds sometimes but it is just not an acceptable option.


Misty

[crazybeautiful]

Err...what happened? Did i miss something?

[rachelle]

Yeah, I feel kinda confused myself.


Whats going on guys? I'm sure it can be sorted out. Come on Jen, theres no need for u to leave here - everyone loves u and uv been doing really well. Keep ur chin up yeah?


Rachel xxx

[mistydb27]

read despair and anger from this morning.





Misty

[mistydb27]

She's gone offline.


Can someone find her?!





Misty

[x hannah x]

I was just talking to Jenneh on msn, she says she's not coming back [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]I didn't know what to say so I spouted a load of crap and probably sounded like an idiot and put her off coming even more [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]I'm sorry.

[Galadriel]

Hey Jen!


I read what you posted on there, and it made sense to me! I think misty just misunderstood what you meant. Its ok! Its interent, and soemtimes we get confused by what others say because we dont have bodylanguage and voice to go on. Please come back! I posted what I figured you meant to try and clear up misunderstandings.

[Jenneh]

just so you guys know, it was mean for me to post about the train thing.


im not gnna do nething like that.

[x hannah x]

Yay! Train jumping is very mean anyway, it traumatises the poor train guy.

[mistydb27]

Dear God. Don't scare me like that again. I am very glad you are back.


Hannah, I actually laughed.


Misty

[mbs730]

Jenneh you have helped me a lot! Please stay! Sorry to hear about that man and the train how horrible



Miriam

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[nat10]

i think ive missed something, why has she left us? please come back! xxxx

[Jenneh]

right. that was appalling behaviour from me. all i can do is immensely apologise.


unfortunately i have had THE worst day in history, but that doesnt excuse how i mucked about with ur feelings everyone, so i am deeply sorry.


i wont be leaving, i think i was just preparing myself for eveyrone hating me (because somedays i really believe tht u do all hate me -- its not ur fault -- all mine)


i wud appreciate if we can just forget this. it was silly of me and so out of character. its surpirising how events in ur day can really change how u act...


&gt;.&lt;


hope u can forgive me.


Jen xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[mbs730]

Jen if you want to discuss it what happened? If not I understand but I'm a good listener



Miriam

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[Jenneh]

i feel i do need to give u all an explanation.


iv explained this to Vicky as she kindly PMed me, so sorry for repetition Vicky.


basically, im very very sensitive to people taking my words wrong, because in real life, i have a bit of a stutter sumtimes, because of my anxiety.. and im practiaclly dyslexic in the way that i cant get my words into a coherent sentence sumtimes e.t.c e.t.c


so wen misty sed that i had hurt her, that was it... that was the last straw to my terrible day. i thort i was jst completly useless and u ppl didnt need me here because all i do is make matters worse.


i blew it out of proportion and im sorry for that.


Jen xxxxxxxxxx

[Hale]

Jen,


I am so sorry that you are struggling. You are a really fantastic person and your kind words to me have really helped me. You are a much valued member of this site and we are rooting for you. You have had a tough time lately with moving and exam results but you proved how strong you are! And still managed to give great advise despite your own troubles. Your a star.

[hanarky]

Im glad I missed it everything is back to normal now yay [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]

[sunshine16]

Sorry I didnt reply earlier but I just had no idea what was going on.


Jen...you are a wonderful person and have helped me through so much. You have made me smile (between you and yur avatar!) and have helped me through so much of my troubles. You are such a kind, compassionate person, and if you left this site, it would not be as good as it was when you are here. You are a treasured member of this site, not only that but to many people you are a treasured friend. To think of anything happening to you...my god, that would be aweful. Hunn, we are here for you, we're yur little emet family and we luv yu. But its okay to feel like this, as long as you just feel it, not act upon it. I mean, its not ok, but it can't be helped. I too feel like this often now a days. But it can and does get better. You have to know this, and not loose sight of this fact, if you do, you will have nothing.


Hang in there hunn, sending you BIG hugs.


xoxox

[reemy]

really i'm new in thissite ,but i really got amazed with the love i found between its members...it's seems to me like it's a big family....all i can say is that i'm very glad to be with u &amp; i hope to be one of this big wonderful family

[mistydb27]

Jen,


Did you get my PM?


I hope everything is ok now.


Love,


Misty

[Jenneh]

thanks guys.. and reemy, the first thing i noted was how compassionate ppl wer with each other when i first jioned.


to be quite i was talking out of my ass saying i was gnna leave this place. im not gnna leave it, ever, i know that, jst sum days the depression wtihin me has another plan!


im amazed at how many of you have taken the time to send me a message, PM me, write here, just for me. it just shows how spectacularly wonderful you all are, and how filled with love and kindness u all are as well.


incase u wanna know, today, im much better ;-). managed to get to the station without seeing a man dead in the tracks! so that was a start.


thankyou so much guys for being there for me yesterday i dont know if i wud have made it otherwise.


Jen xxxxxxxxxxxxxx