for the first time in a long time - i was taken over by my emetophobia. I woke up somewhere around 2 am and felt instantly overwhelmingly nauseous........normally i would get a glass of water and get back into bed but last night (as i was home alone) the fear took over. my heart was beating so fast and my wholy body was shaking! i felt so warm yet shiveray at the same time and i couldn't rest! i was sitting on the back door step (it was below freezing) trying to sip water!


i was frightened by how ill i felt - so much so that i considered getting in my car and driving over to my parents house!


thankfully - it subsided - was most likely something like waking up witha fright from a nightmare or something. but i thought i had progressed to a stage where i didn't feel so afraid when nauseous - but i was wrong - and that frightens me almost as much as the nausea itself!