i get so scared sometimes. i'm scared right now. my stomach hurts. i can't figure out if i'm n* or not.


how do you know when you will be sick?


but why would i be sick? i didn't eat anything bad. i am always meticulous about washing my hands and foods before eating them. no one (that I know of) had a stomach virus.


i'm so shaky. and stomach feels like its rippling but I don't know if thats because i'm making it do that. maybe because I've been having it clenched for so long.





i don't want to do this anymore.


i don't want to be in my body.