Ok just to warn this won't be very graphic or anything but it could get a bit triggering at some points. You have been warned...


Well I v*ed last night. And the worst thing is I pretty much caused it. It was about 2am and I couldn't sleep so I went downstairs to watch tv, got a bit hungry so I had some cereal. That was a stupid, stupid thing for me to do. I know that my stomach doesn't react well when I eat at night, I also hadn't eaten much during the day and to top it all off I used milk that had been in the fridge for a while.


You don't want to know details but I did the usual emet thing of hyperventilating and sticking my head in the freezer. I even ran the taps so nobody heard anything.


I was so sure that not v*ing was the thing holding me back, that if I could come to terms with it more I could get better at coping with it happening to other people. But I'm even more paranoid than before.


I just feel so stupid, this didn't have to happen, I wasn't ill or anything. And I haven't eaten all day either which I also know is stupid. What is wrong with me?