Hi you guys.


I dont know if you remember a couple of days i told you something was wrong with my tummy. It's still there. Today it hurts bad and i had "d" three times. I am freaking out. Then my boss complains a few minutes ago his not feeling well. His tummy hurts, but he's eating.


I had this weird dream last night. I am sad because i had a baby. a baby boy, but i gave him away. In my mind i dont understand why did i gave my only child away. Then i am paging through a photo album. I see myself and my son in a photo. But i'm totaly beautiful on this photo. But the feeling of sadness stays in me.


My future husband dont want to have children with me. He already have 3. His wife left him for another man and she had left the children with him. He's afraid to have another baby and had a vacectomy. Maybe i had this dream, because i am still in shock. I dont know. I am confused.