so i know all of you read my post about john dying. thanks again. but i
am really scaring myself. this whole thing made me think that life is
waaaaaaaaay too short. i could be gone tomorow. my boyfreind could be
gone tonight. i dont know. no one knows. so what ive been thinking is
to do what iw ant to do now. i want a baby. i dont want to go through
life without experiencing children. what if i died next week? i know
that i wont actually go through with trying to get preggo, but i want
to. jack wont. which is good. ugh i hate life haha