So it's 2:23 AM. I'm at my friend's house and I just joined this website because he found it for me. The reason I'm at his house is because today my brother was throwing up in the bathroom and I started freaking out. When things like this happen,I start shaking immensely and I can't even control it. I cry so hard and feel like there's nowhere I can go to escape it. And then it gets to my head and I start thinking I feel sick too.


I was reading that most people have reasons for why they developed this phobia. But honestly, for as long as I can remember I was so scared of it. When I was a little girlI used to pray to God every night that I wouldn't throw up. I haven't thrown up since the 5th grade(I'm now a freshman in college) and I am so afraid of doing it that when I think I might, I always end up crying and shaking.


Last year my brother was going through withdrawls from an addiction and when he was vomiting I felt like there was nothing I could do to get away. My family doesn't understand and seems to think it's just a silly little fear of mine that will pass.I felt so alone because I knew nobody understoodhowincredibly intensethe fear is for me.


The bathroom is right next to my bedroom. Thatvery night when I was laying in bed,my body was shaking and I was upthe entire time. I had to go to school the next morning at8 so I didn't even sleep once. I just sat up in my roomshaking, and then finally when it was time for school I got dressed and left to school. (I would have taken a shower, but I didn't want to even go into the restroom -- that's how bad the fear is!)


Anyway I'm sure this type of story can get redundant.. it's just that I always thought I was so alone on this because none of my friends ever understood me.It's as if I revolve my life around not throwing up. I would just like some ideas on what I can do... what kind oftherapy works.. anythinganybodyhas ever taught you that helps when youstart to freakout about it.


Thanks.. pleaserespond if you have thetime.


-Karenina