This is my first post. I came here because my mom has been v* upstairs for the past two hours and I'm tired of barracading myself in my room because of the fear I have inside.

Some backgorund info:
My name is Mandy. I'm 16, female, living in NJ, USA. I've had this phobia since preschool. There was a boy in my class who v* every single day, for about a year, until the school asked him to leave. It's gotten worse as I've gotten older. I get clammy, cold sweats, heart palpitations, I lose my appetite, I can't sleep. My mind tricks me into thinking I myself am sick. Just seeing the word "vomit" makes me uncomfortable.

My mom was fine earlier today and now I'm worried that I'll get sick.

I see a psychiatrist for depression/self-injury, but I was wondering if any of you know of any breathing exercises or diversions to hold me over until I see her.