Hello! I'm new to the forum. I've known about
emetophobia for awhile from doing internet research, but I'm so glad to
have found a place where I can express my feelings and discuss the
phobia with other like-minded people. Here's my background:


I'm 30 years old, and I've been married for 5 1/2 years.
I've been an emet as long as I can remember. The only event I can
pinpoint as to why I have this phobia is something that occurred when I
was around 2 or 3 years old. I guess I had a sv or had eaten
something bad, but I v* at a Wendy's fast food restaurant. My
parents said I went around for weeks, telling perfect strangers that I
"phrew up" at Wendy's. I guess it made quite an impression on
me! There are other experiences while young that probably did not
help the emetophobia that was developing, but it wasn't until I was 14
that I had my first experience of n* but fighting the urge to v*.
Anyway, I didn't v* that day, and this taught me that if I fight the n*
(sometimes for hours on end), the n* will sometimes just go away.


So from the time I was 10 until I was 20, no v*. At the
age of 20, I v* from a sv. At the age of 22, I v* from being
drunk (last time getting that drunk for me!). And at the age of
25, I v* from a sv. I'm paranoid right now to even post this
message, as it might jinx me into v* in the near future. But I
really want to connect to everyone else here, so I'm just going to go
ahead and do it. As I'm sure all of you do, I hate the wintertime
as it means frequent sv. I hate hearing about friends, family and
co-workers who have a sv as I get extremely anxious that I will get it
as well. The worst (other than myself, of course) is when my
husband has the sv. We haven't had children yet. I tell
myself it's because I'm worried about losing my independence, and while
that is a major part of it, I know deep down that I'm also worried
about morning sickness and taking care of children when they are sick.

I'm glad to have found you guys! Thanks for listening!