I know it’s silly, and I’m trying not to freak out, but I heard from both my friend in <st1:State w:st="&#111;n">Virginia</st1:State> and my mom in upstate <st1:State w:st="&#111;n"><st1lace w:st="&#111;n">New York</st1lace></st1:State> yesterday, and they both told me that they caught a sv over the weekend. My mom is an emet too, so to hear that she was sick and v* all night long makes me nervous, because if it can happen to them, it could just as easily happen to me, right? They said that they felt fine before they went to bed, and woke up feeling like they had to v* with barely any warning. Last night I kept waking up afraid that I was going to wake up feeling like I had to v*. I had panic attacks all through the night, and barely got any sleep. I’m a wreck this morning. My boyfriend has been asking me if I’m ok since yesterday, and he knows about my emet, but I feel like I really am overreacting. I wish I had something I could take to ease the anxiety. Sometimes I wish I could just v* and get it over with. It’s like the longer I go without v*ing, the more scary it becomes for me.

I’m so tired of being scared and having panic attacks L