things are soo not good for me right now. my emet has been an every day thing but its never been this bad. I'm tired of fighting the n* EVERY day. Last night I embarrased myself because I really thought I was going to v* and I started to panic in front of my family. they aren't supportive of it and they think its stupid. A lot of times I hate food because it makes me feel worse.


frankly, I don't know what to do anymore. to top it off, I just dropped out of college, I have no job, no direction, and just want to stay in bed all day. My emet keeps me from going out and actually accomplishing anything. I'm afraid of what will happen when I start feeling sick at work or have an anxiety attack at work.


my mom is worried about me and thinks I'm on drugs because I used to be full of life and bubbly and fun and now I'm just scared of everything and basically depressed and dragging myself around the house.


I've heard that meds can help, but there is the risk of addiction and everyone says "Jess, you think you've got problems now, wait until you start taking meds!"


i don't know what to do anymore. I just so sick of this.