Finally i have faced this and no one will talk to me about it because they grieved a long time ago.


3 years ago me and my best friend were 16, we had been best mates for 13 years, we went to a carnival in town and then walked home and went our separate ways, she had to cut through the bus shelter and me the park. Thats the last time i saw her. She was brutally raped and left to die in a public bus while i was minutes away from her. The next morning she was found by a bus driver and the ambulance was called she was barely breathing, he was too late she died in the ambulance. They found the man and he wasnt convicted because of lack of evidence.


For three years i've barely said a word my emet has got worse and i got anorexia. So i went to see a therapist and it all came out and now i realise i never grieved over her but i am trying to now but every1 has done there crying and trying to get over it and forget she existed. i want the pain to go away but i dont wanna forget about her.


What do i do?