I just found the board tonight and read some of your posts and replies, and since you all seem like a very nice bunch I'm hoping for a listening ear. I've lived with this issue for as long as I can remember, I'm 39 yrs old. I have a couple things I want to ask, first...


When you have been exposed to you know what, do you totally stop eating with the thought that if you should happen to get it too there won't be anything in your stomach? I once went 10 days without eating, I lived on water, 7-up and two saltines a day.


Also, has this phobia caused you to have anxiety/panic attacks? Has the phobia made you house bound, like a prisoner in your own body? Afraid to leave the house in case you might v? I'm finding it harder and harder to leave my house.


Last question,,has anyone ever gotten disability for the panic disorder associated with this?


Thank you all in advance for your listening ear, I am just having a tremendously difficult time with myself lately. I went to bed last night and woke up an hour later with n* and panicked for 3 hours. I was afraid to go to sleep, I was afraid of everything, I paced back and forth for a long time, crying, calling myself stupid, and knowing if anyone seen me I would have been taken away in a white coat. I've done a good job of hiding this from everybody, but I totally fall apart when I am by myself. Any advice?