I am not a very hateful person. I even refuse to use the word hate even when I'm talking about my worst enemy.....but I can honestly say I HATE this phobia.I can't even picture myself with out it. It's like being a girl. I've been a girl since I was born and I can't picture myself a man not that I would want to be (no offense guys). That tells me that I AM this phobia, and I don't want to hate myself. I don't even know what life would be like if I didn't have this phobia. My son is acting off tonight and he has a Balloon stomach as apposed to anIron stomach. I am so mad at myself right now because I just want him to go to bed and it's only 6:00pm here. I'm tired of being scared....it's not even scared anymore.....it's almost like I'm angry when someone is sick...including my kids. I don't want to be an angry person. I dont want to be mean to ppl when they are sick. I hate it so much! I need help. BADLY!! I don't even know if it will work. Anybody have any good Ideas of where to get good help? I think I'm ready. I can conquer this mountain! and I WILL!!!! I won't be scared anymore! I won't be angry anymore! Most importantly I won't be hateful anymore!