My fear of getting sick has developed. I cant stand this any longer.
Every time I eat I think about that the food I eat might have been
contaminated with norwalk virus.

Every day I think about that perhaps I am already sick of the food I
ate yesterday or 2 days ago (incubation period is 24-48 hours).



Recently I began to think about life and death and wondered why death
is feared so much... If you are dead you cant feel anything. But if you
are alive - and sick - you can for sure feel something! Something bad!



I know I am on the border of "mental disease" because of these suicidal
thoughts... But there really exists no cure against this phobia. I have
vomited twise in my 8 year period with emetophobia, 1 time since I knew
the word for my phobia.



And that didnt cure my fear. Instead, every time I have vomited during
this fear, my fear developed. It got worse. It gets worse every time I
vomit...



so there is no cure.