I have just been upstairs. My son is stirring. I'm so scared that he is going to wake up and be ill again.


I am on my own with him all day everyday and on Friday and Saturday nights too as my partner works nights. I can't cope with this so I have packed some bags. I'm going to write a letter and I think I will go. I really can't do this.


I want to take my 12 week old baby with me but what do I do when she is the age when she will v* properly? I want to take her so that my partner can cope better with child care for a 3 year old on his own withoutmy 12 week old daughter but then I don't want to take her as I dont know where I will end up.


I really feel bad about going but I cant stay.


I will let you all know how I get on. I will write the letter and then see how I feel.


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