MY boyfriend broke up with me yesterday. I can't believe it, it was out of nowhere. I am so upset....We went out to the bar on Friday night, we were dancing and having a wonderful time, then when we woke up on Saturday morning, things went bad, then they went bad to worse. He told me that he didn't want to be with me anymore. He said that he changed his mind on wanting kids, and he didn't want to string me along. Then, he said that he thought about what kind of mother I would really be with my phobia and all. He also said that he wants to travel, but he knows that my phobia might get in the way. This is coming from the guy who 5months ago said that he would always be there, help me through my phobia, and that he wanted to marry me, and have kids with me. He was always so sensitive and there for me, and now he doesn't want anything to do with me. How could somebody do this??? I feel so betrayed and alone. I am so tired of my life. He breaks up with me a week before I am to go through all these surgeries. He breaks up with me when I am already at the lowest point of my life.


Why?? Why does this keep happening to me? I really can't take anymore. I am so sad, and I can't deal with this on top of everything else. He gave me no indicaton that this was going to happen. I am so sad, I can't stop crying, I can't deal with this. I need help so bad. I am right on the edge and I am ready to jump. I really can't take anymore. He was the one stable thing in my life, or so I thought, and he just left me. Left me alone when I am already going through alot. I thought he was the one, I really felt that I would and could spend the rest of my life with him, and now I am alone...again. Please, I need help. I am so upset. I can't believe it's over. It's over cause this stupid phobia. I hate this, and I hate myself for having this problem. I don't know what to do anymore.


Michele