it seems like ever since i stopped working at the restraunt i spent 6
years at, ive gained weight. everyone says that it doesnt look lik ei
did but i feel fat. i dont know what to do because i have no willpower
when it comes to exersize and cutting out foods. i just feel like such
a fat ass and every time i see someone im always thinking "theyre
looking at me like- she gained so much weight" i mean im 5'10" and
weigh 162, which seems like a lot to me.

i just dont want to turn into a girel that is always saying "am i
fat???" but i really feel fat. like huge. i look in the mirror and i
look at myself and im discusted. am i losing it? how do i lose weight?
its seriously so depresing.

i think it might have somethign to do with modeling. i did it for like
a couple months, and i stopped. the whole time i was doing it i was
liek "god im too fat for this" and i felt like i was constantly
thinking about my weight. now i am again. and i dont know how to stop.
maybe i need someoen to tell me im fat so i do somethign about it.

thanks for listening, please respond.. i need some cheering up. and im not saying this for attention, its really depressing me



becky