I have not posted in awhile and thought that I should.. I am about to start my third week of college classes and YES I am successfully living on campus. We have community bathrooms.. but I swear this place must've been built by someone who dealt with IBS or something because there is a private bathroom downstairs. You have no idea how happy I was to discover that!!


Anyhow.. I am having a blast here and I am determined to overcome this disorder. I have to. I purchased a huge book which claims to be a workbook to help you overcome anxiety and specific phobias. I really got excited because normally you can't ever find self help stuff when it comes to specfic phobias.


I've started positive self talk each day. I continually tell myself that v* is a fact of life and nothing that I do can control it. I have realized, after having this now for 7 years, that it is an issue of control for me. I hate thinking that it is the one thing I cannot control in my life. But I keep telling myself that it is a rare occurance, and when it happens, I am going to deal with it. I have to.


Well.. I think my roommate is about to get up.. so I'm going to have to go start getting ready for classes.


Oh, and isn't it ironic... I'm a psychology major :-)