Well, I'm getting back into the exposure therapy. I'm still in the process of switching therapists, but I really wanted to get started on exposure therapy. The meds are going okay, I have to increase the Prozac soon, and I assume once that starts working that I will wean off the Klonopin, and keep it only for "as needed" times.


I did my stick man therapy last night. I had my b/f draw the picture (I tried, but it just ended up making me laugh b/c I have no artistic ability) of the man with a line coming out of his mouth. Took 14 minutes to get the anxiety down to zero.


I also learned self-hypnosis from my hypnotherapist yesterday. He gave me a CD to work with, and I'm pretty sure I got hypnotized during our session. I am having little panic jolts when my body starts to sink really deeply into relaxation. I suppose after 15 years of anxiety, my body is like "what's this? this is all wrong. stop it" But I did the CD last night, and the jolts were less intense, so they'll probably go away with practice. I notice that with the self hypnosis, the relaxation is much deeper than it was with my guided relaxation or progressive muscle relaxation. So maybe this is the technique that works best for me.


So that's my update....I'm trying to hit the phobia every which way I can, because I am determined to get over this. I am done with letting this thing run my life.