I hate eing an emet. I want to be normal again (if there was ever a time when I was normal). Its getting worse and I'm loosing weigh because of this and nothing seems safe enough to eat and I keep on embarrasing my self because of this. I'm so frustrated. At one point I could handle being an emet but it sucks so severly right now. I'm jelouse of my friends that can eat whatever they want, whenever they want. They can go out whenever they feel like it and not have to worry as much as I do. I can't wait for this to be over so I can move on with my life. I'm frustrating my friends, my family, and this one guy that I like sooo much (he is sooo cute and has an awesome personality). I completely embarrassed myself in front of him the other day cause we woke up and everything was fine and then all of a sudden I had this panic attack and I started to cry and whine and freak out and he was trying to help me but it was making it worse. At the time I wasn't embarrassed, but when I look back at yesterday I'm like "SHOOT! I was such a weirdo!" and I haven't even gotten a chance to apologize and tel him I'm sorry for flipping out on him! Ugh! I hate being an emet so much! I want it to be gone soo bad!


Sorry, I'm just frustrated and miserable and I needed to get it off of my chest.[img]smileys/smilies_29.gif[/img]