I have just joined and thought i would introduce myself. i am mainlydoing this to keep busy, cuz i have been feeling nauseous for the last 2 days, and my parents are both feeling the same. i'm pretty sure that im not gonna be sick, cuz i think i would have been by now.


My name is Felicity, but everyone calls me Fee.i will be 20 in october.


Anyway, I'm an emetophobe and have been since i was around 5 years old. I dn't know exactly how it all started but i have a few early memories of feeling scard of seeing other people vomiting.


The one that i believe started it all was seeing by mum vomit. she was just sat in the living room and all of a sudden she was vomiting andtoldme to fetch her a towel. my brother was there at the time and he ran upstairs with meto get towel. i wentback downstairs and saw my mum vomiting into th toilet. i remember just standing there watching...as i remeber it seemedquite violent and i was scared for her. I think this was the first time i was scared.


i havent vomited for years. in fact, i dont remember vomiting, but about 7 years ago i got a bug thay everyone in my family had.i woke feeing nauseous (i didntremeber feeling like that before, butsomehow i just knew wat i was. i didnt let myself vomit tho, although each time it got harder and harder to stop myself. even tho i knew what was happening i was in denial. my dad asked me if i felt sick and i said no! my sister asked me and i said no, even tho i was struggling to keep it down at the time! she then gave me some travel sickness tablets that stopped it! it was just so strange how i kept denying it evn tho it was obvious that my body wanted me to be sick!


i used to share a room with my sister, and i remember som nights she would wake up in the night vomiting, and i would just run so fast away frm her. it terrifies me, it aways hs. to be honest i dont really know how ive coped. ive never had therapy of any sort but am considering it, cuz since starting university it has become harder to deal with. i am scared of seeing other people being sick, but m,ost of all myself. it stops me doingso much. i cant go on big theme prk rides, i will never have kids cuz i couldnt look after them! and recently its becme difficult to even kiss my boyfrien cuz im scard that he will be carrying a bug and we will both become ill! its taken me a while but i realised that i dont want to live like this any more. i am going to do somthing about it now. i have decided to join the National Phobics Society as a first step, and i have joined this forum!


well sorry for rambling on so much! anyway, thats my story! hello everyone! x