I think the biggest thing this phobia does to me is hinder my sleep which affects so many areas of my life. My kids start school in the morning and I decided that I really need to stop this--I need to get some sleep so I can get up in the morning without being so dog-tired! I went to bed at 11 tonight and fell asleep at midnight (early for me) even though every time I try going to sleep before 2 I wake up feeling s*. But I told myself I was being ridiculous. HA! Sure enough I woke up at 1:30 with a yucky gassy feeling and now I am awake with stomach pains. I know it sounds like a self-fulfilling propecy, but I honestly have a stomach ache. The thing is, I know I'm not going to v*; it's not that kind of stomach ache. But here I am awake again with no hope of falling asleep anytime soon. I was just so proud of myself going to sleep like a normal person instead of fighting it like I usually do until I'm so tired I practically fall asleep sitting up. And now I'm gonna have to psych myself up again to go to bed at a decent hour tomorrow night. Tomorrow's already shot--I was going to go work out before the kids got up for school, but now I'm going to just have to struggle to stay awake long enough to get them out the door and then collapse back in bed and put nick jr. on for my 3 year old.


Anybody else find that this thing is worst at night??? For that hour between the time I went to bed and actually fell asleep I just listened for my kids getting up (I hate it when they get up at night even if the poor things just have to go potty!) and every little sound (a/c coming on,fridge making ice)would startle me because I am just so anxious. I end up half the time falling asleep sitting up with the TV on in the living room.