Heya,

Im megan, joined this site a while ago. Haven't been here for a while
cos everything got better. I had better things to think about. Don't
get me wrong it was always there but it was better. But now I'm lost
again. I've found I'm avoiding going out and don't want to go into
school just incase.

I read someones post today, and it summed up everything I'm feeling. If
I knew I wasn't going to be ill it would be fine, even if someone was
to say, yes you eill be ill. But it's the not knowing. I hate not
knowing when it could happen. Im just...fed up and its getting me down.


What made it worse is my best friend. Bless her she is a star, only
person I talk to about this but I no longer feel I cnn. She recently
confessed to me that the other day she felt ill and v* (can't type it
any more, used to be able to) and after that once she was fine. But now
when she feels down she does it as a comfort. All I could say was go to
the doctors. I feel so bad, I just went offline and cried. Wished I
could be her, so uneffected, and I want to be able to help but i can't.
Dont think I'll ever understand someone that chooses to do that.

Just thought Id write here in hope that someone would help...support
me? I don't know, I just feel so lost and alone right now. xxx

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