I am seriously freaking out. There is a lot going on in my life right now and I am not handling it well at all. My husband and I have been talking about moving, and started looking at houses to explore what's out there, and we found the perfect house, but it is sooo expensive, and kind of far, but he's pressuring me to buy it . .. but now that this is happening I don't want to move and am very worried about the money. And our house isn't even on the market. And the preschool I found after 8 months of searching would be 45 minutes away from the new house. I can't pull my daughter out of it once she starts because I had to pay tuition in advance ($4000) which is nonrefundable after school starts unless a replacement is found. I signed her up at another school close to the house today, but I don't like that school, it is way more expensive, but close to the house . . . but it starts Monday, and I'm sooo not ready. And it's far from *this* house.


All this is making me positively ill. I am nauseous all day and can't sleep, and am up all night (like now) horribly ill and depressed, and having panic attack after panic attack. In the daytime I'm so sick I can't play with my daughter. But I know moving would be good in the end. I just can't deal with it now, and with changing preschools. Please help! Thanks!