I've been back to my old therapist about three times now, with the express purpose of starting to treat my emet. And we've talked about *everything but* emet. I just can't do it. Every time he mentions it I change the subject. I can discuss it with him via email but in person I just panic. I can't even mention it. I know him incredibly well (I saw him for two years as a teenager through a charitable trust, but am now paying for sessions myself, which makes me feel like I'm under even more pressure to be productive during the sessions, because it's costing me money!) but I just. can't. talk to him about this.

How do you start talking about this in therapy? It's completely terrifying.