Hello everyone

So im writing this with feelings of sadness and happiness I had emet from age of around 7 up untill 18 when I went to Uni strangely it went and for 3 years I had no fear wasn't concerned about handwasshing ate foods and drank till I was drunk and you know what I never once got sick at all. Since I returned home I've gone downhill I've become scared taking domperidone hurting myself freaking out watching what invest you know the score and well I've had 2 sv one this year one last year it's hard not to make the connection about happier times.

so I'm trying to battle it and stepping out going to do some work in Africa in a mental hospital and with orphans. It's an amazing opportunity but I'm still very very scared so much to think about -the travel/food/hygiene etc.
Any words of support would be so greatly appreciated as would any sponsorship money towards the trip
It's going to be documented by a crew and I, hoping to raise awareness once and for all for emetophobia
(even as I'm writing this I feel like I'm having an anxiety attack) nausea sickness feeling HELP what have I let myself in for!!