Okay, so I drink, I trust myself usually because I have never v* from drinking before.. I had way too much to drink last night, and it happenned, and it was so much better than I thought it was going to be, before it happenned, I couldnt breathe and I was so mad at myself for drinking too much and I just wanted to die, I knew I couldn't stop it this time. I sat up and my boyfriend held my hand and it just happenned, It just came out.. It wasn't much, I was more bothered about getting away from my own v* I was scared of it?! I went to the toilet and I was wretching but nothing was coming up, just burps. I felt better after I V*d. The feeling was not as bad as I'd imagine it to be and I thought to myself 'Was that it?'. I never ever want it to happen again, but I did it, and I'm still here. This was the first time I V*d for 7 years, and for the most part, I am so proud of myself. Just thought I'd share and tell you all, that it really isn't as bad as you expect, Happy new year to all x