as i expect most of you know, im having a pretty hard time at the moment, tryin to keep on top of evrything and not compltely breaking dwn and giving up... anyway, last night, i had thisdream, which has completly stirrred me up again...


i was at my school (my safest place to be atm) and i was on the second floor, and this girl had just v*ed.. she was picking it up and puttng it into a can [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]but then all of sudden she made these moaning noises and i KNEW she was gnna v* again. so i ran away , as fast as my legs cud carry me, but she followed... and as i was running i thjought to myself "if only i cud run tht little bit faster so i cud get away" and thats xactly what i used to feel lke wen my dad or mother would chase me abusively wen i was little so it brought back a horrible horrible feeling...


**another warning, graphic**


anyway, i musta managed to get away, but then wen i got back onto the ground floor, there was red v* all over the place... everywhere u trod, and everyone was throwing up as well.. and i just RAN out of my school


and tht was it, tht was my dream it was horrible.


i hope it doesnt mean nething, other than iv got school soon and im pretty anxious about going


Jen xxxxxxxxx