Hi my name is Kim I have know i have had emetophobia for about 4 years now. but i have never done anything about it.

I had an experiance yesterday and i just need to get
it out to those how will undstand and not think i am odd. Yesterday was
my boyfreinds 21'st birthday. So i spent the day with him and planned
on staying the night. so i had a couple of drings with him then him and
some friends went out to the bars. When he left i went back to his room
and went to bed. but i just laid in bed terrified, what if he comes
home snd is sick what if he is sick in bed, what if his friends get
sick? I tried to talk myself out of it by saying that he doesnt get
sick when he is drunk he just passes out, he will be fine. But it didnt
work i sill layed there tossing and turning.

Then i heard him come home, and he went sraight to
the bathroom, and stayed there. I went out and asked his roomate where
he was and he said he was getting sick in the bathroom. Then the
anxiety really stated to hit me. my heart was pounding, i was
trembling, i had the chills. I wantered around the house for a
while wondering what i was going to do and just being completely
freaked out. I could hear him stumbling around in the bathroom, and i
know he probably wanted nothing more than for me to come in give him
water, comfort him, and put him to bed. But i couldnt. I couldnt help
the man i love. I couldnt go near the bathroom.

I finaly went home because i couldnt be at his
house, but i just laid awake at my house. So i had to go to school on 3
house of sleep and not eating anything because my stomach has been
doing loops all day. It hit me that i need to do something about this.
My 21'st birthday is comming up and how can i expect to have a good
time if i am terrified. I dont know what to do, my boyfriend just
thinks im odd, and i dont blame him.

For all those that read this thank you for listening to my rant, and if anybody has any advice e mail me ae [email protected].



thank you

kim