You may know that i havent been very well lately..? Well its got a bit worse, i dont feel too sick though but my stomach is cramping so bad i havent had any sleep these past two nights. My boyfriend couldnt get any time off work to help me look after our daughter. I asked my mother to have her today for a few hours so i could get some rest and she said no! She said that if she started by having her once then every time i felt a bit sicky i'd run to her and ask her to babysit!! The thing is in all the time ive had emet and suffered from nausea, IBS, stress, agorophobia etc i have NEVER not even once asked her to have my daughter. Of course my mum has looked after her a lot beofre, when shes offered to... then the one time i ask her to she says no? Its made me realise that she still doesnt understand this emet like i thought she did. She thinks im not really ill and im jst emet-ill if u get me. I told her that i didnt even feel sick!! Im exhausted and im struggling to look after my 2yr old. Theres nobody else to help... i have no friends... my boyfriends mother is away on holiday. My boyfriends just started his job so he couldnt get the time off.


Im just so upset that my mum thinks this way? I could understand it if i had asked her in the past but i never have. I think i genuinely have a bug or something... i am going to the doctors tomorrow to find out cause i have lost 5lb which isnt good seen as i was only 7st to start with.


Sorry this is so long i just needed to get it all out...


Sarah xxx