hi i last posted here a year ago befor undergoing cognitive behavioral therepy wich helped my plight alot. you see i wanted a baby more than anything in the world so I went through the therepy treatment. in april i found out i was pregnant and was over joyed but also scared of morning illness!!!!!!! i was 12 weeks pregnant and chuffed i hadnt been ill .... until i collapsed was sick and my hole world fell apart. i was layed up ill for ten weeks doctors not doing any thing collapsing five times a day full of fear. suffering only because i loved my baby so much. but i went to get an 18 week scan done to check the baby. there was my tiny sweetpea so still and peaceful my baby was lying there dead and i was so empty. every thing i had worked so hard for gone. but it didnt end there. if any one is interested in the rest of my story post back and give me some love i am so tired