My nerves are shot anymore. I'm getting back to where I was last winter. I was petrified to eat. I'm scared to eat today. I've only eaten lunch and I can't even get myself to get again. I'm scared to sleep. I was up untl 3:30 AM last night crying because I was afraid to fall asleep. I'm having vomiting nightmares. I'm taking my Dramamine like crazy and taking my temperature like crazy. I really needed that Phenergran and my doctor wouldnt give it to me because anxiety is why I wanted it and she's not a psychiatrist. I don't know how to get my psychiatrist to give me some. I don't even know if she would and I don't know what to say. And besides, I don't see her until Sept 16th and I need something now. Just knowing it's in my purse calms and relaxes me. I remember when I had Phenergran I was peaceful at night because I knew it was there when I needed it and that it would help me out. It's a safety thing. Should I be denied it when I'm suffering like this? Someone please,....how can I go about getting some from my psychiatrist AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. I couldn't call her because I'm shy and under 18 (I'm 16) and my mom is weird about all this doctor stuff with me. Anyways, I see my counselor tomorrow, should I bring it up with her and maybe she would talk to my psychiatrist? They work in the same building.


And until then. How can I calm myself down?