Hey there everyone, i have had emet for as long as i can remember, and i have always managed to deal with it up until now,because i am pretty determined. However, in May this year, I experienced my first ever panic attack, and it couldn't have happened in a worse place. I was sitting my mental maths SAT exam, the ACTUAL exam, not the mocs.
I'd only eaten a sandwhich before i went in, and I had been feeling lousy with nausea all week. However, i felt nauseas whilst sitting at my desk, and then i became really fidgety.
I sat there privately torturing myself, my stomach was too bloated to touch, and I felt AWFUL! I kept glancing at the door, and thinking " i can run out "I got so shaky, and convinced myself that i would throw up, that i promtply ran out of the exam and to the toilet.
On my flee to the ladies, my pe teacher stopped me and gave me a telling off for running out ( if only she had a clue ) i told her i was about to be sick and she told me that it was no excuse! The thought of throwing up in that environment completely freaked me out
Since then I have completely dreaded going to exams, and have experienced many mini panic attacks since, especially in public and school, resulting with me being sent home week after week. I'm so fed up of this because i dont want to ruin my chances of doing well. I'm just so scared and worked up it's unbelievable. I wasn't sick that day i left my exam, but why did i panic so badly?!