Gah! ~falls over~

[pink_flamingo]

Well I havent been on here all summer but now its time to go back to school -.o


Here comes 10th grade [img]smileys/smilies_11.gif[/img]


Another overly stressfull year caused By emet. Its insane! I cant get though a minute of the school day without being nervous. It makes school, which is already stressfull, so much worse. By the time I come home from school I cant manage to do anything becuase Im so tired from the day. I just fall over on to the couch and stay there until Homework time. I am dreading school more than ever before this year. I have been trying to convince my parents to homeschool me. Homeschool seems like running from the problem but when the problem cant exactly be solved it seems better that I could atleast have a life without constant anxiety!

[Melikasa]

I remember 10 th grade. It was a new school, a huge school and I had to take a bus to get there. I dreaded it all but not knowing anything about phobias and thinking I was the only one it was a lot harder I think but I managed. Yes home school might be awsome and yes it would aleviate the stress but situations are you going to have to face that will help with emet and social phobias that are there?
We could all hide at home but even though the stress levels are lower we aren't helping ourselves out by doing that.
As a high school student you need the social aspect of group activiteis and to make memories for yourself. Discover better who you are. I look back now and I am glad I went through it even though at the time I was so exhausted from grade stress, emet, agoraphobia, claustrophobia and anorexia.
Maybe it worked for me and maybe I am full of it but it is mearly my opinion and hope that you keep going to school.
Best of luck to you hun and BIG BIG HUGS.

[mystikal star]

Whatever you do, DO NOT homeschool. I've been homeschooled for two years now and this is my third year of homeschooling. BIGGEST mistake of my life. I havent learned a thing because my mom isn't too bright herself. I don't know how she managed to become a nurse. Now I have to do a learning program on the computer with the school and I have to do all four years of high school in two years in order to get a diploma from the school. Now I don't HAVE to do all four years in two but if I want to graduate the same year as my cousin (which I do) I have to. So it's going to be TONS of hard work.


Homeschooling, for me, was my way of running away from Emet. My mom has been on my back to get back into school and I cannot prepare myself mentally to do so. So luckily the school is willing to work with me since they have a program.I register as a student but do the work via the internet. And I meet with the teachers every so often for mid terms. And I'll get a diploma once completed.


School is tough for anyone, but for an emet it's soooo much worse. But tough it out because in the end it will be SO worth it. TRUST me. If I could change anything in my past it would be quitting public school. School kept me together in a way. Now that I'm homeschooled I'm almost afraid to leave the house, especially in the winter. So yeah, homeschooling isn't all that great. [img]smileys/smilies_06.gif[/img]


Well, I've blabbed enough. Best of luck to you hun!

[wing]

I'm entering 10th grade too now and yes i agree with you that i does make school worse. In fact without having to worry so much i would love school. Even though this will be hard and i too had similar thoughts about homeschool i would say that dont worry have confidence that you'll be fine. I'm trying to think that way too because now this year i live farther away and it takes about 40 minutes to school by car instead of one minute.

[youngemet222]

I love school, except there comes a time when an ignorant parent sends their kid to school SICK and then they end up vomiting at school. They have no common sense. If your kid clearly says they feel like vomiting, don't send them to school!! Ugh. That, besides PE and the stupid color dress code, is the only thing I relly hte about school. Too bad emet and these things have to ruin it...


Lizzy

[Jenneh]

you hate school the same reasons i do.


i come home from school and just cannot do NETHING let alone all this important coursewrk and homewrk they set!!! =S at the end of the term, im absolutely exhausted.


every minute of the school day im panicking that i/someone else around me will be sick. its absolutely insane!


its the last school year for me. so keep going u can do it.


Jen xxxxxxxxxx

[sarahx]

I am so glad i didnt have emet to deal with when i was at school, although i was afraid of v* it wasnt to the extent where it seriously affected my life, like now. But i did have problems with being very nervous about everything and i didnt like going out much.. early agoroaphobia i guess....


I had to quit college after 4 months because my emet ballooned out of control... then i accidently got pregnant so... 4 yrs later and i havent done anything with my life except for being a mum. I tried to do a college course earlier this yr but i kept panicking when i was there so i just stopped. Im dying to do some sort of course but i just cant bring myself to even try incase i fail again..


I dont know how to advise you, all i can say is it is definitely worth staying on at school and doing ur exams etc..


Sarah xxx

[pink_flamingo]

I have so many homeschooled friends who love being homeschooled. They say its the best thing they ever did ;-; Theres a bunch of homeschoolers in my town becuase the schools are so horrible [img]smileys/smilies_02.gif[/img]

[skon]

I guess I'm lucky that emetophobia wasn't an issue during school. At one point in grade 10 though, due to panic attacks unrelated to the phobia I now have, I put my foot down and stopped going and demanded to take school via correspondence.


Of course, that never happened..I guess I'm glad it never turned out that way now. What happened was, that the school counsellor was willing to do whatever I wanted to keep me going to school there. I had a huge advantage simply because I was stubborn and wasn't going to do anything I didn't want to. So, they pulled me out of all the classes I didn't want, like gym, which is required in grade 10...but not for me, hua. Half my classes in that last year of junior highended up to be free time blocks where you just sit around and do homework. You know, the kind they stick the "bad"/low-iq students in. Of course I did not fit in with that group at all, since I actually had a higher IQ than many ofthe "normal" kids who did normal classes and stuff, but I put on the stupid act so I didn't have to deal with much during school.


The remaining 2 years of high school, I still maintained the upper hand with the senior highschool. Whatever I wanted, I got. I switched around classes like crazy, and got study blocks when I didn't have the workload required for them.


Having ananxietyproblem in school CAN be an advantage if you are stubborn enough, and are willing to make noise, make them think you're going to quit, whatever. Maybe my dumb act didn't fool the counsellors and they didn't want to seem me throw my life away by quitting or something. In any case, this kind of thing did give me extreme leverage when dealing with the school. The panic attack thing didn't last long and wasn't a problem through the rest of school. I'm really glad I didn't have to deal with this phobia at that time though, because that would have been complete hell. I don't know how you guys do it.

[sunshine16]

I know what you mean. I am going into grade 8, this time next year I'll have to go to a new school.


Ugh. School means taking the bus, catching sicknesses, homework (too much!) and seeing people v* from the flu. Stupid people, shouldn't go to school.


Yuk. Like really, is there really anything good about it?


Taking the bus, yuk. Hello? Bus sickness! Thank god last year and this year are the only times I have to take the bus. But I just think that people with motion sickness shouldn't take the bus. Thank god I'm not like that. And the flu is always going around school. :-( and then you get so stressed out from all that homework. It's terrible.


What'sa student to do?

[pink_flamingo]

oh teh bus, I hate the bus! I have to take it in the morning. I know how you feel. People have V*ed on our bus in the past. I cant believe I ever got back on the bus after this one incedent.... o.o At least I have finnaly gotten out of going on field trips!

[Jenneh]

how did u get out of going on field trips? !!!


Jen xxxx

[pink_flamingo]

Well I finnally convinced my mother that I just couldnt handle them anymore. She sorta figured it out becuase I would always fake sickness and cry before a field trip o.o Now I just dont go on them. Well exept for the ones where we go to preform with my band.

[izzybee]

grrr I hate school so much. I'm going into year 11 so I've been doind this for so long. I'm fed up of it. Its so scarry and I aree that it takes up so much energy. I am exhausted by the end of the school day. Cause you have to look out for people who look sick and its so scarry when someone says they feel sick in class and your trapped. Yeh thats what I dont like - theres no escape and you cant leave if you need to.


I havent been on a school trip since year 5. I cant stand going on the coach/bus. Theres always one kid that feels sick and scares me soo much!!


Last year I only went into 45% of school. I was ill and severly depressed through the winter and found going back to school difficult. I go back to school on thursday and I'm meant to be going in more often - but I find it too hard. I'd rather work from home and get work sent to me. But I guss you;d miss out on the social side of school, thats the only thing I go in for now really - to spend time with my friends.


Its too hard!

[pink_flamingo]

45% of school? wow O.O This year our school has tightened attendence requirements so now they will take your credits away if you miss more than 10 days. This puts even more pressure on me! Besides emet, I seem to get sick with all sorts of weird stuff o.o Sometimes the flu can take me out for a week, thats already half of the days you can be absent.


Well today I found about about independent study programs through schools which allows you to do your classes at home but still graduate. Now I just have to discuss it with my principle.

[youngemet222]

In 5th grade, we were havinga special field trip where we could hve gotten to go to Camp Hi-Hill, a nature and camping-type area. It was up on mountain range, or something, and the field trip lasted 2 1/2-3 days. I wanted to go, but guess what? Emet ruined it for me. I went to school that day, all ready for the trip (I was nervous, of course, that someone would vomit on the bus). I went to the assembly before the buses were supposed to leave. After that, I got on the bus and one of the camp people were actually giving instructions on what to do if you feel like you are going to throw up. I could not take it. I got off the bus. I think that my teacher was disappointed tht I didn't go (she wanted me to go because I had finally had the confidence to turn in the permission slip after I was unsure about it.) So, I went home and my mom tried taking me up there and after the first curve (mountain-typeroad), I said that I was too afraid to go all the way up there and I just went back to school. I got stuck with this mean teacher who was teaching people who didn't go on the trip. All the other kids there were rude and they weren't as advanced as me in academics (I was in thegifted class-or accererated class) and I had to do easy work. I think that mean teacher actually was making fun of me!!! I never even told them my fear. Ugh. I have no problem going on regular field trips on buses, but that one, I chickened out. I will probably never have any oppertunities to go to that camp again. DARN EMET! Die Emet monster, Die!!!


Sorry....I got carried away there....[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]


LiZZy