Hey everyone. Well I have a long story to tell and I hope someone can help me. I really need it. Well here we go.
I am a 14 year old girl and have suffered from a unexplainable fear of v* or getting a "stomach bug" ever since I could remember. Like, if I kid comes into school saying he has had a stomach virus, I have to trace every memory of the past week back to him to make sure i wasnt around him "too much", and if i was, I worry about it relentlessly for days on end. If someone in a class v*, I start shaking, i get dizzy and extremely nauseated, and I feel out of control of myself as this overwhelming feeling of doom comes over me. This has gone on all my life, some times better than others.Last February, I had a stomach virus. I wasnt incredibly sick, but it was still miserable. Then, when I thought I was better, I got it again. But it was an extreme lesser version and I was only sick twice ina whole day. It still scared me. Then, about 5 weeks ago, I was diagnosed with mono. Mono causes different symptoms in people, some get sore throats, some get headaches. For me, it was unbearable nausea constantly and the inability to eat for several days. It also made my acid reflux ((I had it as a 5-7 year old but "grew out of it")) come back so I had to sleep sitting up for a week.Now, the mono is getting alot better (i can go to school and stuff) But the problem is I now know my immune system is somewhat lowered because of the mono, and school scares me. Everywhere scares me. Im afraid to touch certain things and im constantly washing my hands. I get nauseated alot and started freaking out that im going to v*. I am terrifyed to wear a certain pair of pajamas that I wore when I had a stomach bug last because i am afraid that wearing those pajamas will give me a virus, and I am scared when any change in routins occur, because im scared it will cause me to be sick. I am also scared to say certain things without knocking on wood. I am a Christian and dont believe in things like that but im terrifyed beyond imagine. Every spare moment is used up thinking about v* and worrying about getting it.Worrying causes me to get anxious, which in turn nauseates me and makes everything worse. I also get splitting tension headaches and get dizzy when I worry. Im telling you all this because im not sure if it is emetophobia, generalized anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive, or just the mono messing with my head.
HELP! Im only 14 and my life is out of control.
-Paige-