no one will probably read this but i have just read alot of other peoples experiances and wanted to get mine off my chest. if anyone does read this could they please leave a msg 4 me?
i have been suffering from emetophobia for about 6 months. i have never liked sick or being sick but it has never affected my life in the way it has been lately. the last time i was sick, i did not know what was hapening to me, i was quite young. it was also christmas eve.i woke up feeling strange and could not put my finger on what i was feeling. i had no tummy pain just felt kind of light headed, i went downstairs and told my mum i felt weird. i sat on the sofa feeling awfull and then my mouth began to water so much. i really didnt know what was going on. the next thing i knew, i vomited i couldnt controll it. i burped and had a really bad pain in my stomach just b4 it happened, butit was so sudden. i felt really scared and then it happened again. i remember my mum had to clean it all up. i think this may have been my trigger, but it didnt bother me for years just recently. it may be a controll issue. i have seen my mum be sick, my friends and my boyfriend. i see my friends and my bf be sick on a regular basis because they drink alot of alchol and take drugs which often makes them vomit. i dont really have a problem with seeing others be sick, i can stay in same room, but i always get them to reassure me that it is due to too much alchol or too many drugs and not a bug. i suffer with many of the same problems as others have written about. i find eating meat and other foods a massive problem, i always check the date on foods and have lost a stone in weight. i used to loveclubbing all night with my mates, but now i feel on edge all night incase someone vomitsi am always asking my mates if they feelalright. i find it hard to sleep properly and i just genrelly feel like this is taking over my life. i have had one session of hypnotherapy andi felt better for a coupleof hours afterwards but it has had no real impact on the phobia, perhaps ineed more sessions. everytime i look atsomeone i know iimagine them being sick and everytime i go to the toilet i wonder who has been sick down this toilet. wen i look at our car it reminds me of vomiting as my mum was sick out the window once after drinking too much. it seems to be all i think about. as someone else has said on the site, i am always looking around wen i go out for piles of sick and then get al panicky if i do see one. wen i go to nightclubs i always listen out for people beingsick in the toilet and i often see piles of vomit on the dancefloor and around the club. however no one else probably notices them. i have also develpoed a mild case or ocd i feel as if i have todo certain things to stop me being sick that day. like doing things in a certain order, closing my bedroom door twice and always washing my hands to prevent germs. i often get myself so worked up and anxious that i do actually feel sick. which often happens in the middle of the night. it is an awfull feeling and i feel like i cant controll it. at wirk i always worry that there will be a bug going round and that i will catch. when someone comes near nme i try to hold my breath and move away from them. i feel like a weirdo. i am due to havesomephysciatric help next wekk. has anyone else had any?did it help them? sorry to go on one so much i know it must b a bit boring [img]smileys/smilies_12.gif[/img]
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