it’s been quite a while...

[beknasty]

hi there. i don't know if any of you will remember me...but i still see
some familiar faces out there. i was a more prominent member in late
2004. i was having a lot of problems dealing with the death of my
grandma and this phobia seemed a lot more obvious in my life around
then. as i joined the site, and talked to many of you, i started
feeling SO much better. the panic attacks subsided greatly, and life
was starting to feel "normal" again. eventually, i felt that i was
doing much better, but my new obsession with researching information
and religiously reading other people's stories and worries and concerns
was starting to get in my head. i found myself being more sensitve to
situations, so i thought i'd sorta take some time away from the sight
and try and feel "normal" whatever THAT means.



it's been almost a year and a half since i've been on and i've been
doing fairly well. not cured or anything like that...i still have my
moments...plenty of them. but not enough to REALLY concern me on a
daily basis like before. i just recently moved to hawaii (i'm from
california) and i was terrified that the move would bring on the
constant worry symptoms again since i'm so far away from my family and
friends. i admit i've had more moments of panic and fear of throwing up
recently than i have in the past 5 months, but nothing dramatic.



it wasn't until tonight that i had a real and serious FOR SURE feeling
of throwing up. i haven't felt THAT sure in several months. i felt the
need to visit this site because it made me feel better when i first
found it.



so here i am, stopping by (at 4am might i add as i'm still not feeling
well) to say hello and hopefully i'll be around for a little bit.



bekah

[fifi]

Hi Bekah,


I am fairly new here, so its good to hear how much this site has helped you. It sounds like you are suffering with anixety, maybe because of your move. Try and relax and think of the lovely place you are at. You could be in London!!! The weather here today is quite nice, however, not like Hawaii! Try and think positive thoughts in your head.


Have some peppermint tea or some ginger, if you have any or just some water. Let is know how you feel, i am here if you want a chat.


Keep strong and big hugs from England.


Fifi


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[beknasty]

aww, thanks! yeah it was actually an amazingly beautiful day today.
yesterday was so grey and rainy that it was nice to get a break...too
bad my day had to end so badly.



i just started my period last night, so i'm guessing a great deal of my
issues are based around that. not only that...but, and i'm not even
joking when i say this, i have a total addiction to sugar. the past few
days have been stressful...midterms and such, and i haven't found much
time to eat so i've been eating candy almost exclusively. turns out,
that's not so good for you. haha. today, i think i just finally did
myself in by adding too much caffeine to the mix and my stomach is
going "uhh, HELLO! what are you DOING!?!?"



rationalization right? it's so textbook unhealthy, but it helps...most of the time.



ps. welcome. hope the site can help you out as it did for me when i
first joined. it's strange to see how many people feel the same way as
you and you feel a little less crazy, huh?

[hayleyw]

hi


i know exactly what you mean when you say that people's stories and situations get into your head!


every night when i go to sleep, all i can think about is other people's situations and experiencess with emet and it freaks me out more :P i want to try and stop comming to this site everyday, but what can i say? im addicted


anyway, i hope you feel better and im sure you will!


-hayley XOXO

[beknasty]

hayley



yeah, you can CLEARLY get addicted to this site. i feel that when you
see how many stories actually relate to your life or you see others
that have it worse (and those people make you feel better cuz at least
you don't have it THAT badly) you just can't get away from it!



when i first joined, i was on ALL THE TIME but i focused on helping
other people out when they were going through anxiety or panic attacks.
most of us are clearly aware that we have a really irrational fear and
we see how silly it is but we can't make it go away...but when you're
going through feelings of nausea or whatever and you're freaking out,
all of a sudden it's like, where are all those RATIONAL thoughts i
have? haha. so i always focused on that: helping other people while i
was "fine" and thinking rationally since their mind is flippin out.



it helped a lot...until i got TOO concerned with others' problems and
starting displacing them onto myself. that's when you're an emet.org
addict! ahhah



bek

[fifi]

I know, i am so addicted to this site now! But it is really good coming on here and hearing other people that feel the same as you do. I really think you feel bad because of your period and all that sugar. I sometimes feel "poisioned" inside so i have lots of water and i feel better after that.


I like coming on this site, as i feel relieved that i am not alone with this phobia and you can also find out how you can get sort of better.


Luv


Fifi


xxx

[emetojackie]

I'm addited again! I started coming on alot around this time last year religiously, then after a few months I stopped as it was just on my mind constantly! - now I'm back again! Its great knowing how many people out there are all in the same emet boat! I'm a little bit worried its turning into a bit on an un-healthy obsession but no-one else understands my fear like you all do so when I hit an all time low I think this is the best place to be!

[beknasty]

SO true jackie.

it's feels so different to talk to people who understand what you're saying and don't think you're crazy!

[emetojackie]

doesn't it just! You can tell friends, family but no-one I have told has really understood what I am going though, they have put up with me in a bad state for a while but then they begin to get annoyed and say "well it can't be that bad, whats so wrong with it anyway? its not that scary.."


Beleive me, I *KNOW* that and if it were that easy would I deliberatly work myself up like that just for fun! I think not! I'd give anything for it not to bug me!


But its a different story here as every single member has been though/is going through what we are - its just a complete different reality!


I propose we make an Emet-Island lol [img]smileys/smilies_04.gif[/img]