Difficult time

[izzybee]

Hiya. I havent posted properly here for a while but I really need your help right now. As some of you know I used to suffer with emet very badly. Things got better-ish, which was when I left the site - although I was still very much phobic. Anyway Ive started to feel really down again and am struggling to cope with it all. Im only attending 5 hours of college per week (out of about 12 Im meant to do) and struggling even to do that. Im feelng very low and am in no mood to fight this phobia any more. I guess I jsut want to rant really - but do any of youhave any tips to get myself out of this depression. I really want to get back on track again as I was doing really well agains t this phobia - but im worried im going back to how I used to feel where I thought of nothing but being sick.


Thanks for listening and hope u are all doing well!


Izzy

[blondie90]

first of all, congratulations on overcoming the fear a little bit! that's a very big step. i was really depressed last semester at school, so depressed that i transferred from a pretty prestigious university to live back at home. i realized that my depression was both creating and worsening my situation. i rarely ever went to class because i couldn't get myself out of bed during the week, and it made me feel even worse that i wasn't getting good grades. i'm home now, commuting to college, and there are still days that i just feel 'blah'. i find i feel alot better when i push myself to get to class and work hard. it doesn't sound very appealing but it will get your mind off this fear and depression. everyone experiences up's and down's, im sure this is just a phase and in no time you'll start to feel like yourself again. keeping up with school may actually make you feel a lot better. keep in touch and get well soon! be happy[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[princessmel]

Hello: You are probably just in one of those ruts. I get in them too. You really just need to push yourself. Think of school and doing good in school. Do things that make you happy/calm to relieve some anxiety/tension whether it's taking a bath, listening to music, going for a walk, etc. Try not to obsess about it. I know you can do it. Be strong. You will get through this rut. You've been through the others, right? So have I. Don't let it control you. Get a different mind set. You've been doing good. You do really have to push yourself. I have to too. It's so easy to lay in bed, you know? That's what I did today. Not b/c of emet though b/c I was being lazy, and I felt like crap until I decided to get my ass out of bed and into the bathtub. You will get through this.[img]smileys/smilies_01.gif[/img]

[liz28]

ive also just dropped three classes, so now im only taking two!
and ive moved back home/commuting 1.5 hours to school.
the only thing that keeps me joyful even when im feeling totally horrendous
is my faith in jesus.
and that is that.

[izzybee]

Thanks for your kind words. Im sure that this is just a phase and that soon things will be better - but the scarry thing is that only I can get myself out of this. I moved house n the summer to a completly differnt area and I think this has had a bad influence on my emet and has stired things up again. But hopefully I should settle down at college soon and things should get better again (Only to bemoving to uni in a year and a half! grrrr) This morning I didnt want to get out of bed and just lay there - but I thought to myself that this isnt doing me any good. If im going to get over this I have to challenge myself and start to do things, even if I dont like it very much. Thanks for your support. Im glad this site is here if I need it.


Thanks


Iz