Rough time lately...

[silver]

Lately I have been having a really rough time with anxiety and depression and it seems like it has been making my emet worse. For example this weekend, I found myself afraid after pretty much everything that I ate. We went out to dinner and I found myself afraid after I ate a chicken dish that "what if" the chicken wasn't cooked right? and of course all of the other "what ifs" that go along with it. I literally dwelled on it... I am fighting going back on anti-depressants due to the side effects. I have been beating myself up thinking that I am weak. I am frustrated because I have worked so hard to stay off of them the past 6 months, but I feel miserable again. Anyone else had this cycle with coming off of anti-depressants thinking that you "should be able" to deal with it on your own?? Also, am I out here on my own about the "worrying and obsessing" about what I ate?? I feel out in right field right now so to speak...

[SimplyMe]

Aww, you're not weak! Whether you go on the anti depressants again or not it doesn't make you weak. Seeking help when you know you need it is NEVER weak!


I've never taken meds but I do get like you describe, worrying over stuff like food, feeling that I am weak for not being "normal" but it's OK. We're allowed to not be normal, no one's normal.


Emet is such a pain in the butt and can interfer so much. Try being proud of yourself for what you can do rather than mad at what you can't and then you have those things you can't to work toward (like nto worrying after every meal). Can you talk to your doctor and tell him/her you dont want meds but explain how your'e being affected? Maybe you can go on a low dose?


I hope this helps and that you start feeling better soon!

[crystalmom]

Coming off anti-depressants can be very difficult. Try not to beat yourself up. I have been up and down in strength, and different types. I have no shame whatsoever saying I take them. For me, they saved me from a complete life of solitude. Don't feel ashamed for feel 'down' while coming off of them. There are chemicals in your brain trying to adapt to not having them.


The "what-ifs" are hard, even though you know they are not rational, they are completely sane while having them. Try to find something else to focus on. If I am out, I try to play tetrus on my phone (if I can). At home, I try to have a hot bath or read.


Find what is your comfort zone. You'll make it through this, oneway or the other.


Crystal

[liz001]

Hello Silver...


I too have just stopped taking my anti-depressants and find myself having a very difficult time. The reason I stopped taking them was b/c I hated the fact that I was relying on a pill to make me feel better. I was kinda raised in a family that doesn't belive in phobias or depression, stuff like that. As a kid I had a lot of trouble w/ what I think is anxiety and my parents were always like, "get ahold of yourself!" and I honestly couldn't. It's just overbearing! Ever since I stopped taking my meds I feel like I'm worse off than I was before I even started taking them in the first place. I feel like my emets is getting worse. I will panic over everything. I really fear that this is going to take over and I'm just going to go insane. I havent' really talked to anyone about my emets until lately and its like everyone thinks I'm crazy.....but you are not alone in what you are feeling, I'm right there w/ ya!


-lizEdited by: liz001

[silver]

Its funny how when you try to explain it to someone that doesn't understand that they think that you are crazy. I had a friend who is severely bi-polar call me "nuerotic and crazy" last Friday, it killed me...One thing that I find funny in our society is that it is "normal" to go to the bar every night and drink your stress away, but if you chose to deal with it head on and face the pain, anxiety, and embarassment, you are "crazy." Why is that??

[izzybee]

I dont understand that either - how some problems are respected and people try to understand, but other they just turn around and tell you you're stupid. I dont get it. Coming off anti-depressants is a difficult thing. Maybe you could try some other talking treetment to help you get back to life without anti-depressants? It may make the journey a little easier for you.

[angel13]

Aww...hugs from afar, silver =]I sort of know how you feel. I've never been on anti-depressants, but I know how hurtful and depressing it can be when you've been going allright, and suddenly you plummet again. I recently went through a rough patch, worrying about everythingI ateto a point whereI lostmy appetite completely, having permanent anxiety, andbeingmiserable for days on end. Please don't beat yourself up about this - you're certainly not weak! You have to remind yourself that you'll get through it, and will be stronger as a result. Whether you go back to the anti-depressents or not, it doesn't matter ^_^don't feel like you have failed if you do. You're doing this to help yourself feel better, and if the medication helps get you back on track again, then I'd go for it. I agree with SimplyMe, why not try a smaller dose, and see how you go?


I hope you feel better soon!