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[xbrandnewgirlx]

Hey everyone. I am a 15 yr old girl living in England, and yes, i have emetophobia. I didnt even know it was called that until I found this website, although I know I've been suffering from it for over four years now. It seems to be a totally irrational fear... I think about being s**k every single day, most of the time, in fact, its on my mind... and its just terrifies me. I cant pinpoint exactly when it started, but all I know is that its awful and definitely a cause of the depression I get sometimes. I have done the most ridiculous things, or at least thought of doing them, to avoid being s**k. When I was little I used to pray to God every day (even though Im agnostic) that I wouldnt be ill. But when I was I thought that couldnt work, so I stopped. I have a severe stomach condition as well, which makes me feel sick all the time, but Ithen have the problem of never knowing whether its a bug or just my illness, which is torture. Sometimes I have even contemplated suicide if I think Im going to be sick. Talking about it is agony. But i have never told anyone... I find it hard to open up to my family, and so Ive just coped with it alone for all these years. But i just need to talk to other people who have the same problem as me... maybe it could make it better. xo

[ontariogirl]

Welome to the site. In my teenage years I thought of suicide to. The easy way out! This phobia was so out of control for me at age 9. I have so many sad memories of this phobia. My younger years was not what it should have been and it hurts to this day. Can you see your doctor about this? Do you think you can try and talk to your family about this? I have had this phobia for 31 years now, found out about 6 years ago that this is a phobia and told my parents. I tell everyone who I know that i have this phobia. That way they can understand me better as a person with this phobia. It does help.
Remember you are not alone at all.

[izzybee]

Hiya and welcome to IES. Im Izzy and im 16. I understand completaly where your coming from. Having emet and being a teenager can be very difficult. Ive found that I cant go out with my friends and miss out on alot of 1 off oportunities. Unfortunatly I too have felt suicidal at times just so I can stop feeling scared. But ive learnt that this is not the answer for me. I have so much I want to accomplish in my life and I dont want to waste it. Im glad u've found this site as it has been a great help to me in the past.


Good luck


izzy.xEdited by: izzybee

[Babydoll]

hi its nice to meet you! hoefully you wil find some support here!

[SimplyMe]

Welcome to the site! Everyone here is great and you will always be able to find someone to understand and/or who has been thru the same as you!

[tabycat]

yeah this community has helped me deal lots, it's nice knowing there are others out there like yourself

[xbrandnewgirlx]

thanx everyone so much for your kind words...Im hoping this website will help me cope. Thanx izzy for your support! xo

[xsarah-warahx]

Welcome!
I know how hard it is being an emetophobic .. But seriously, the people on this site are, well

Amazing =]]

Hope you enjoy it here =]]
xx

Oh yeah, your screen name .. brandnewgirl .. is that saying like, that you're new, or that you like the band brand new? If its the band one, then wow, me too. =D
xx

[xbrandnewgirlx]

in response to xsarah-warahx, its the band one- i love brand new! xoxo